My Walk With Christ
Sharing my personal testimonies and struggles with Him

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This is my personal account with my Lord and Saviour. To share my personal testimonies, struggles and blessing from the Lord. It's my hope that you will be blessed by it


humbly His,
--kuancheen

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Feb 9, 2012
Dumela!

Dumela!
That's the greeting in Botswana and I was told Southern Africa too

Hi, my name is Kuan Cheen, and I am from CY1, CY4 and GC1 Homes!

Thanks for all the prayers and support for Acts Botswana, by the grace of God, we had not just planted a church in Africa, but I believe that we also planted a seed for God to work a greater work in Africa.
Let's continue to sow in our support and prayers. Pray for wisdom, guidance, provision and protection for the team back in Botswana, which is led by Nnete.
Pray for a God-led Transformation in Botswana, for her people and the nations around her.

Praise God for His love for us.
Praise God for His love for the people of Africa.

I'm here today to testify about His goodness, His faithfulness and His unchanging love.
He is a promise keeping God
We might forget about the promise He made to us, but He never forgets.
We might forget about the promise we made to Him, but He never forgets.
He is a promise keeping God.
And if you are from Southern Africa, you might go
"Eish!"
But I will stick with Praise the Lord!

It's true when God say that He know the plans for us even before we are born.
He sets us apart and He has a plan for us, a plan which is much bigger then our own.

Before I knew Him, I was seeking for the answer to life, but apparently the Answer sought me first and found me first.
He planned the day I would have met Him, He presented the choice for me to follow Him.
From that day, I gave my life to Him, I have gained a hope and a future.

It's the beginning of my new "Semester" in my life.
I have learned and still learning to love Him and to love others.
Learning to trust Him, to be patience and to be obedience.

And it was through one of the "class" trips that God shown me He love, His love for His people, He compassion, He zealousness and jealousness for us.
It was my first ever mission trip, through a mission organisation which I joined when I was in my previous church.

Then through a friend, I was invited to the 2nd First Priority Conference that Acts held. It was when Acts still meeting at the Hub.

And the stirring for mission grew, which eventually led me to attend Acts.

And it was during the First, correctly if I'm wrong Pastor, the First First Priority Conference which was held at the Summit, I responded to the call to be sent out to missions.
I didn't know where, I didn't know how, and I didn't know when.
All I know at that time, I was compelled to make His love known.
He is our Father, and our King.
He has prepared His great Kingdom for us and He wants if not all to be a part of His Kingdom.

I have learned to trust on His timing is perfect and His will.
I have also learned God is always molding us, preparing us whether we realise it or not.
No step too small, No task too mundane, nothing is accidental, it is an on going process.
I am learning to be faithful with the small things, and giving my best in all I do.
I hold on to Jesus' words in Matthew 6:33. Seeking first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Where ever I was, I took it upon me that, that was the mission field that He called me to be in.
Whether it was Subang Jaya, Nilai, Cyberjaya, Millenium or Desaria.
Or whether it was with the Kids, Teens, Campus or YWA.
Wherever He was sending me, I will go and I will give my best.
To love, to care, to encourage, to build up and to train, the people I had the priviledge to meet.

I never have thought that one day that I would have been to Africa.

But I stand here today as a testimony of His goodness, His faithfulness and His unchanging love.
We might have forgetten but God never forgets.

I have totally forgotten about what happened in that First Priority Conference, until Pr. Sandra have to remind me during one prayer service before we went to Botswana about it.
It is really amazing how He interwines all the events together according to His plan.
The mission organisation which I signed up for my first mission trip, is ICM which Pr. Kenneth is now the Board's Chairman.
I don't believe it's pure coincidence.
I thank God for being a part His plan.
This is just the beginning, there is a greater hope and a future.

God have a great plan for His Kingdom.
God has a plan for all of us. He wants us to be
He sent His Son Jesus to give us life, a life that's with hope and a future.

Pastor Sandra did not ask me to say this, but I highly encourage if you have not do so.

Sign up and show up at the First Priority
You might be acquainted with your future and destiny
Mission Conference is just not about how to be a missionary
Mission Conference is to hear about God's First priority
God's First priority you and me
So let's come and find out about His First Priority.

All glory to God, Glory to His Faithfulness.

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Nov 7, 2006
Son, I Have Done My Part ...

Sometimes, when Our Loving Father confirms something, it can be for the lack of better words, scary.

This is it. There is no more doubt. There's no turning back.

It has been a few years already that He has instilled in my heart to embark on the journey of full time ministry.

Coming from a family of pre-believers, in a country which pride itself in religious tolerance, the words of my dad have been echoing in my head since the day I took the step of faith to receive Christ as my Saviour.

"All religions are the same, they are all equal. All religions want us to do good. Just don't be overzealous. Don't be a fanatic."

Those words were to me like "Full Time = Fanatic".

This was my mountain.

Then few weeks back, God miraculously prepared my parents' heart and opened the opportunity for me to share with them.

At the end of it, I pictured Him saying with a wink, "I have done my part of the deal and now is your turn".

Hey, I just want to praise God and (thank you) your prayers. Tonight's been an answer to my most heart felt prayers. I actually shared from my heart to my parents my desire to one day leave everything behind and go full time. They were one of my greatest hurdles for the desire He has place in me. Praise God for removing all my fear and for the right timing for me to share. And they are actually supportive of me and even joking said to me if I were to go on mission I better bring my spouse and child along and take home care of them and they believe in good family bond and I should never neglect them. I just want to give Him all the glory & all praise for this great peace & joy.

kuancheen 19 Oct 2006



Here are the responses I received. Thank you people!

Hey kuan cheen, almost asleep but thot i must reply u. Praise d Lord! Am glad to hear of it!D lord has got wonderful plans 4 u!Stay focused on Him and His word!

PAT


Awesome praise God. But first get a girl friend first la then marry her then only got children ma. Praise God i share with you this joy.

JChu


Thanks for sharing. prepare wit more prayer n willingness for God to take charge n move. hav a great trip.

STan


Praise the lord.Dats great news.Wil cont to pray for u as god leads u into greater heights.Surely he wil nt lack in blesing his children. :)

AYap


hi kuan cheen, great to hear u hv overcome spirit of fear, n d favourable reply fr ur parents. v encouraging. another gd news is sis margaret is getting much better, thx to ur prayers. may His face shine upon u n b gracious to u. chu

CKYen


Ah praise God. I'm so glad and am so happy you have experienced this break thru! See how God leads you thru it all. Nothing can come in between the love of God and you. Your testimony will lead a lot of ppl to rather serve God instead of themselves. So praise God for this mission now more can be accomplished. Thank God for the heart He placed in you and Praise God for the so much more in store for you. Will keep you in prayer. God bless.

SRam


THIS IS INDEED WONDERFUL! Praise GOD!!! Cant wait to hear ur testimony on that! Wil continue to pray for u n family.

MFun


Good on u my bro. Believe that God is always in control even though v feel out of control. Cell will support u as well!

STing


Definitely great to know. Praise the Lord..Hallelujah for what He has done, been doing & will be done ahead! They must have witnessed how He works and changes you for these years. They even consider for your family in the future How much they love you. God would show kindness to them as He did to us and bring them to Christ.

Now you are waiting for the best timing of His call? May God give us the faith to obey what His will for us like Abraham. :)

CLiu


God is great keep prying I Like to meet u

URaj



I want thank everyone who prayed. To God be the GLORY!!!

kuancheen|kuala.lumpur|20061107.1730
... Lord, I pray now for full obedient, courage and strength to step forward, thanks, love You much!












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Oct 11, 2006
If a Coke can go surely can You!


My Coke® Cans Collection

Lord, today as You set my eyes on my collection of Coke cans and bottles from all over the world, You raised this question in my heart, O Lord, You made me wonder, if Coke can reach a country, what less is it for Your Great News to reach the people of that that country. What less is that for us to be Your instrument. If a Coke can go surely can You!

My Coke® Bottles Collection

Use me Lord I pray. Use me Lord as You will, as You have given me this desire in my heart, this passion to spread Your Word. Lord, I believe with all my heart and I know You have already made the way.

You already opened up the doors for us to go through. You have shut the rest that You do not intend. It is now only up to us now. It is now for us to take the step of faith. Lord, grant us the discipline to strain towards the goal. Lord, help us to guard our heart. Let our desire only be of Yours. That we only will hear Your voice, not ours and not anyone else's and surely Lord, not of the enemy.

Lord, lead me to make the right choices, let me wait on Your right timing. Let me not move ahead nor trail behind you but to walk by Your side. I love You Lord with all my heart. May I hear Your sweet sweet voice. Let me sing sweet sweet songs to You Lord. Forever and ever and forever more.


kuancheen|kuala.lumpur|20060919.----
... "Here am I. Send me!" Isaiah 6:8 (NIV)

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Oct 10, 2006
Who Am I? Why Me?

As a 'young' person in Christ, I am still have so much to grow.

I believe we actually will never stop growing, the level of growth maybe different, inside our body, regardless our age, our body is still renewing and regenerating, cells are being replaced daily.

I still have much learning to do, continuously giving myself to be mold into the person God wants me to be.
Often then not, during these times of growth, I struggle with questions like: -

Who am I?
Who am I that You want to choose me for?
Who am I that I can serve you?
Why You not picking someone else?
Why are you not calling someone else?
Why me?


A few days back, I was in that familiar phase again feeling small and insignificant. And while being caught up in hecticness of this world, I did not manage spend as much time with Him as I would love to. When the end of the week draws near I was just so thirsty and hungry for His Word, I longed so much to hear from Him. I cried out to Him for His forgiveness and poured out my desire to hear from Him.

Then, through these Words of Deuteronomy 7:7-9, I heard Him say: -

My Beloved Child,

I did not choose you for what you have.
I did not choose you for what you can do.
I have never chosen you for how 'big' you are.
I have never chosen you for how famous you are.
Not for how influential you are.
Not for how well verse are you with the Bible.
Not for how many bible classes you went or how many schools you have attended.
Not for how much you know what to do and how to do.
Not for how able you are.
It's not about your ability.

I chose you simply because I love you.
I chose you simply I honour the promises I have made.
I do not turn back on the Words I have said.
It's My desire and My promise to bless you.
I want you to have the very best because I love you.
I want you grow.
I want to see you be the person I know you can be.
There is nothing else I rather have than seeing you happy.
You know that I want all to flourish and none to perish.

I chose the weak to shame the strong. I love those who are willing, humble and avail themselves. So that you will bring glory to My Name. (1 Corinthians 1:26-31)

There will be times when you will face the giants in your life.
I will be with you.
I will use that tiny ability you have, that tiny stone in your hand to bring the giants down.
There will be times when you feel that you are trapped inside enemy's stronghold and you struggle to get out.
I will come to your rescue.
I will deliver you from your entrapment and free you.
There will be time that you feel that the enemy is against your every move.
Know that I am with you always.
And know I Who is in you is greater that the one who is in the world. (1 John 4:4)

Know that I am indeed your God. I am above all things and nothing is impossible for me.
And know that I am a faithful God, who will keep My promise.

Child,

Take heart, I will bless and shower my love onto you and your generations to come.
Just stay close to me.
Seek me with all your might.
Love me with all your heart.
And obey my commands with all your will.

Love,
Daddy



He chose us simply because He loved us.
He promised He will redeem us.
He will continue to bring us through our personal struggles.
He will see us through refining fires which will purify us, the fire which will burn till we are of without impurities.

Thanks Dad!

kuancheen|kuala.lumpur|20061010.1430
... there's only one voice I'd listen to ... the Voice of Truth












Voice Of Truth

Lyrics by Mark Hall and Steven Curtis Chapman
Music by Mark Hall and Steven Curtis Chapman
Performed by Casting Crowns [web|review]
From the album Casting Crowns [review]
Song based on 2 Cor. 12:7-10 and 1 Cor. 1:20-2:4



Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth


Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

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Sep 25, 2006
Light A Milllion Candles

It started with an email I got few days ago, then I caught the ad.

It's great that we are starting this awareness on child pornography, which have been around way too long. But let us not forget and be distracted by affect pornography industry as a whole to our society. Child pornography was stemmed from never satisfying hunger for sexual entertainment. Is the industry going to stop here? Are we going to stop here?

As we come together with compassion for these children, it's an encouragement to read:-

[Jesus] said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these ... And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them.

God Himself loves these children, every single one of them, and even more than us. And He Himself wants us to come to Him as His little child. He longs for every one of us to receive His forgiveness, grace and blessings. Every one of us who had in one way or another satisfied our own desires through pornography, everyone who is directly and indirectly involved in this industry. I had my journey and am living in His grace daily.

We should be decent and true in everything we do, so that everyone can approve of our behavior. Don't participate in wild parties and getting drunk, or in adultery and immoral living, or in fighting and jealousy. But let the Lord Jesus Christ take control of you, and don't think of ways to indulge your evil desires.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.


Light A Milllion Candles


Some brutal facts...
  • There are more than 100,000 child pornography sites on the Internet.
  • 19% of online pornography images are of children three years-of-age or younger
  • Up to 20,000 children are being abused online everyday.
  • Online child pornography generated over US$20 billion last year – 7 times more than the entire online music industry
  • 5 new children are abused online every week

Light a candle and help end the sexual abuse of children online.
The innocent victims of Internet child abuse cannot speak for themselves.

But you can. With one simple action, you have the power to get them to take action....Please light your candle at:

http://www.lightamillioncandles.com


With your support, we can eradicate this evil trade.

We do not need your money. We need you to light a candle of support.

We're aiming to light at least one million Candles by December 31, 2006.

Governments, politicians, financial institutions, payment organizations, Internet service providers, technology companies and law enforcement agencies have the power to work together to eradicate the commercial viability of this abuse.

Together, we can destroy the commercial viability of Internet child abuse sites that are destroying the lives of innocent children.

Kindly forward this email to your friends, relatives and work colleagues so that they too can light a candle.

Thank you for your support.

kuancheen|kuala.lumpur|20060925.1405
... "Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'"


















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Jul 28, 2006
ICM Mission to Batam - 6 May 2006

This was the short write up I submitted to ICM for my short mission trip to Batam, Indonesia in May.

kuancheen|kuala.lumpur|20060728.1933
... to God be the Glory
We broke into two teams and half of the team was at Gereja Sidang Jemaah Allah (GSJA) Bumi Sarana Indah for their Young Adults service. This is the second GSJA church to be planted in Batam.

We joined the local church ushering team to greet the congregation at the entrance and it was heartwarming to see so many local faces to come and worship the same Lord we all worship!

The church is of predominantly Batak tribe from Sumatera, who most settled down here in Batam in the last five years. So it was a pleasant surprise that we met amongst them a Teochew couple from Pontianak, Kalimantan, Ricky and Lily, which the husband speaks fluent Mandarin.

There were about fifty people, when took our place as the service was about to commence. The service started of with lively praise and soon the church was filled with the presence of God and the congregation was having an intimate worship with God.

Later, two of our team members, Brother Chris and Brother Kuan Cheen, were given the opportunity in glorifying the Lord through their testimonies. Brother Martin later shared a message with the congregation. Praise the Lord as He empowered the three of us who spoke that day to communicate clearly in Bahasa.

The local pastor, Pastor Mangitar Sirait, then closes the service and challenges the congregation further.













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Jul 26, 2006
The One About Marriages and Timing

I always believe in His perfect timing. Like my last visit to New Creation Church (the Rock), He wanted me to listen to this specific message, and He scheduled me nicely to be at that service at that time, which the pastor just came back from his oversea trip and I was blessed.

Indeed, every encounter/meeting is not by chance. And sometimes to you seek to be edified, you hunger for the Lord, and the Lord let you to a place, a meeting, an encounter, but instead of just being blessed, you later found out that He led you there to edified others too. That was what happened to me two weeks ago.

Met up with my old school mate since primary six, during what was to be my last weekend in Singapore, while visiting her church at Cornerstone Community Church. I was still seeking the Lord for answer how I was to move on in a certain aspect of my spiritual walk, and I was blessed by the guess speaker that Sunday. And after the meeting, managed to catch up with my friend and let me to write the following to her.

Praise the Lord for He is the Master of all plans.

kuancheen|singapore-kuala.lumpur|20060709-26
... "... seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you ..." Matthew 6:33






















Hey,

Been thinking since we met, then was bogged down by work till now, more than two weeks after we met, only managed to finish this. This might be a bit long, but hope you will read on. I was wondering whether I should be writing you this or just keep it to myself. I hope what I am about to say will be an encouragement or an affirmation if you have already heard if you have heard it before.

Marriage does seem to be on your mind lately, doesn't it? During our meeting, you been asking questions like "Who is marry next?" and "Who got girlfriend/boyfriend?". Hey, it's normal, just like you cheekily put it that we are both at our "marriable" age, so it's only normal to ask. I have to agree but with a pinch of salt.

It was a blessing to catch up with you after all these years, albeit we actually met up last year, and finally get to meet up with your fren from your cell. I have to admit that I kind of forgotten about him from the mail till you reminded me. Though, it was subtle (but maybe not subtle enough :P), I sensed that you both are more than just friends. Although there is an urge for me to ask, but it never been me to snoop around. I respect others right to tell when they are ready and when they want to. And if it isn't meant for me to know then it's fine. So I kept to myself.

When we ended up at your church's bookstore and I overheard your conversation with your friend who was working there. Hey, I really didn't meant to eavesdrop, unless you did it on purpose :P This was why I struggled to write this lest you think what kind of 'kei po' (busybody) am I. I did not overhear much though, was actually trying hard not to listen, hehehe. But I did catch the part about getting your parents' blessing.

I want to encourage and commend you on your desire to honour your parents.

Sometimes our own families and especially our parent who are the biggest hurdles we have to get through. They are the ones who witness almost every moment of our lives. They are the ones we grow up and around with. They know us better than anyone else and at the same time we think we know them all too well. We live together long enough to know how they will react and how we will react. Sometimes these perceptions raise the barrier even higher, because or some past hurts or disappointments we even build up our own walls.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

It has been two years since my last (first, and still me one and only) relationship. We both have since moved on and I even attended her wedding last May. At first it was hard for me to take it in. I questioned Him for ending a relationship which grew for four years which to a point we were ready to answer the 'M' question. But He had to end it which at that time least expected to me. The first three months was really hard for me.

But I thank Him for His strength, but most importantly His grace. It was with His grace that I did not 'disown' Him during this stage. He continued to comfort me, through His Word and the people around me. I was vulnerable at this stage, there were many reason for me to turn away from Him. But He held me on. He reassured me. Amidst those teary and hurting few months, He gave me the peace which brought me through. Now looking back, I knew it was something He needed me to go through, and I don't regret it now.

She was the one who brought me to Christ. She was the one who brought me to my wonderful family of Christ in my current church. Here is where I came to know the Lord and came to grow in Him slowly. I am grateful for the Lord to use her to find me, when I was seeking Him all the while on my own. For the four years we were together, my growth in Him have been progressive but minimal. As most couples in love, we will spend most of our time together, doing things together and not so much with Him. I spent most of my time, energy, attention on her.

Now, I understand why He wants us to be equally yoked, and just being in Christ was not enough. Though both of us are Christians (which eventually we are), but our spiritual level was not. She was form a Christian family, active in her youth and university Christian Fellowship, while I was, well, 'new'. Although, I was serving in a ministry with her, I always second best myself. It was as if the Devil was telling me, "Hey, you small Christian baby, what do you know, just keep quiet and let the adults talk and do the work.". I was not really growing.

My walk with Him was some how stagnant. He used this time of emptiness to fill me with Him. I continued on to be in the same church, same ministry as her, though I was struggling, some how He gave me the strength to 'persevere'. I got more involved in the church youth. My heart grew closer to Him. I spend more time with Him. I will constantly be pouring out to Him in worship, shedding my tears as I confided to Him. He have definitely 'soften' me up. Now, I even cry in soppy scene. Arrghhh, how had He soften my heart! Gimme back my 'manly' heart :P

He brought me into fellowship of other Christians, who I would not have the time to meet before. He brought me to cell meetings, revival meetings, youth conferences and shown me His wonderful work in His Kingdom and how He is moving through His people. It was during this journey that I was baptised with Holy Spirit. Then I found myself signed up for my first mission trip out of the country, about six months after the break up. During the trip, I was struggling to come up with a testimony to share, then He spoke to me. He woke my Spirit up and revealed this to me.
My Dear Beloved Son,

I know you are still hurting inside.
You still questioning why I letting you go through all this.

I love you more that you know.
I long to be close to you, more than you can imagine.
I long for you more than you can comprehend.

You know that I am a jealous God.
I'm jealous not because I hate you.
I'm jealous because I love you and I long for you.

There were things that you had put first before Me.
And one of them was your relationship.
I took the relationship away because I wanted to be closer to you.
While you were seeking Me, I found you.
It was through the relationship that I found you and you found Me.
But there are so much more I want to show you, there are so much more I want to bless you.
But you will need to make Me first, make Me the center of your life.

For the past few months, you have grown closer to me, compare to the four years you have been in the relationship.
I know it's hard. I cried with you each tear you shed, each lonely night you spent. I was with you.
Though it hurts Me seeing you being hurt, but it warms Me to see you grow.

You would not have been on this mission trip six months ago, it is not by coincidence that you are here.
I love these people who you are about to share as much as I love you.
This is the chance for you to glorify Me.
Go and share you struggles, your hurt, and your pain.
Testify to them that I am indeed the God who loves and longs for them.

Bless you My son.

Your Loving Father in Heaven

 

Well, two years have since passed, though He has healed my brokenness, the emptiness still being felt. Sometimes we might find substitutes to fill the emptiness but only for temporary. I know He have someone in mind for me, and I ought to wait on Him, but sometimes my fleshly desire just want to jump out and shout "I want it NOW!"

There are times when I meet someone I will be thinking is she the one? Lord, is she the one? Please, Lord, let her be the one. The flesh is weak indeed. It is its nature to desire every need and want to be fulfilled instantly. It is the flesh which want us to react instantly, to seize the opportunity and to act on the spur of the moment, which often end up to be the wrong move.

It is a constant struggle to hand over the control from our own flesh to Him, letting Him have full control of our lives. It is hard to have the faith to surrender to His plan and timing bring the other person He intended to us. It is about obedience and patience. Obediently and patiently surrendering to Him, knowing and trusting Him that He is in control and He has the best for us, knowing and understanding that He does not work to our human standards or timing. We need to learn to wait, wait and wait on Him.

Waiting is no fun.
Waiting is not easy.
Waiting is traumatic.
Waiting is frustrating.
Waiting is suffocating.

But waiting is also therapeutic.
Waiting is also strengthens.
Waiting is also grows.
Waiting is also nurtures.
Waiting is also, well, like the old cliché, character building.

Remember the story that the Lord made the Israelite waited forty years in the desert?
Remember Joseph's time as slave and also the time he spent in the prison?
Remember the story about a kind-hearted person who tried to help a caterpillar out of its cocoon?
We heard the stories and bought the t-shirt. Like you pointed out, if Abraham had to waited, there would not have been Ishmael.

It is the journey that He wants us to experience, not the destination. It is through these journeys that He will mold us, prepare us for us to receive what is installed at the destination. He is using this period to not just prepare us but others as well. Could He is using this period of waiting to prepare your parents?

I sometimes wonder, why it's easier for some of us to hand over our finances to our Lord but find it so hard to hand over our future partners and marriages to Him? Are we surrendering Him part of our lives but not the whole part? I am learning, I am slowly learning to take back seat and let Him have the wheels and bring me to places and adventures I never have thought I would have end up with.

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Yes, I do occasionally get 'those' questions and pressure from my parents too, especially being the eldest son in the family. I will imagine it will be even harder for women at our age. In fact we all do it at this age, don't we? We even ask our friends and peers about the question, and that was what got both of us into this conversation in the first place, right? :P

That's typical of us Asian, isn't?

Maybe it's time that we change our mindset. Though, it does have some social advantage in starting a family early, but as I was writing this I was reminded of Sarah and Elizabeth who were barren and were blessed with children in their old age. I'm not saying that we are barren or to bear children in old age, this is one of many examples that show He will take care of us if we are faithful and obedient to Him. I am sure His plan for us will include the plans for our children too.

The generation that we are in now differs from that of our parents and even of our grandparents. Our grandparents with minimal education, started work in their teens in the fields, helping out they parents, came down all the way from homeland to settle down in some foreign lands just to make a living. They were men and women with responsibility and some were bread winners for their families by the time they are 14 or even younger. When it came to our parents' generation, while most of our parents if fortunate get at least a secondary education, most started to work and start to help up in family business by the age of 17.

When it came to our time, most of us now guaranteed at least a secondary education and most job now requires you to have a decent university degree and by then time we are out to work we will be of the average age of 24. Most of us are just starting to get our lives together, trying to adjust to the working world, and trying to take on 'real' responsibility at this age. Compared to our grandparents, by this time they already have a couple of children. Isn't it the time we change the benchmark?

Okay, that's enough excuses. Hehehe. So nowadays when I am asked about the question, I will just smile at them and keep the words to myself. Sometime I wish I could tell them, my parents, and my family in the way that they will understand that I am waiting on Him. I wish they will understand that I rather marry late, even if it take me over my forties, than having a marriage which is not an honour to Him and not blessed by them.

Lord, help us to honour You and also our parents! Help us to obediently surrender every expect of our live to You. You want the whole of us and not part of us. You want us to trust You in everything, and not just the things that we feel that we can trust you with, not just the things that we are comfortable in letting go. Help us, Lord!

This journey ahead may not be easy (most certainly it won't) but we can continue to encourage one another and keep each others in prayers. We can take comfort that He will be there with every single step we take. Every heartache and every joy, every failure and every success, He is and will be there with us. Praise the Lord!
Our Dear Heavenly Father,

I want to thank You Lord that we come as brother and sister and call You our Lord, our Father and our Friend. Thank You, Lord, for this gift of fellowship which we are united in Your one Spirit. It is Your command that we are to encourage one another, to keep each other in prayers, and also keeping each other accountable. Your Word says, "Let us not give up meeting together, ... , but let us encourage one another" (Hebrews 10:25) and "If one part suffers, every part suffers with it" (1 Corinthians 12:26). Let us continue to be a blessing to one another, an encouragement or just being there for one another.

Thank you for the gift of our families. Thank you for our earthly parents, for it is them who thought us the first meaning of love. It is also through them You taught us the meaning of trust and honour. Lord, as we strive to continue to honour them as our parents. I pray that You will make the way for us that they will come to understanding and in agreement.

Lord, grant us the patience and strength to persevere to wait on You. Oh, how many times had we wanted to go our ways, take things into our control and according to our timing? Lord, we know that You have only the best for us, You are the one who laid foundation to all creation and existence. Everything will fall into place if when we trust You more and have that faith to hand everything it over to You, Lord.

When You made us, You did not wish us to be alone, apart for the few who You have chosen and gave the gift of celibacy. We all long for life partner for a person who will share our life here on earth. I pray that You will lead us to build a relationship which will be pleasing in Your Eyes. Which will be a blessing to You, which will glorify Your Name even more, that the relationship will not only edify the two who are in it but also to the others around. I pray that it will not hinder either party to serve You instead it will bring synergy and breakthroughs to Your ministry.

And for the rest of our families who have not come to know You, who have fell away from You, Lord, we pray that You will reveal Yourself personally to them. You know in our hearts, how much we long for them to come into Your Kingdom. Let us continue to be the beacon of light in our own families. It's tough, and it's not easy to be the 'role model' but help us Lord. Sustain us, Lord, guard us, Lord, help us, Lord, as we surrender ourselves to You.

Nothing is impossible with You, Lord.

Thank You, Lord, in Jesus' name, Amen.

This has really been a long mail and I pray that it will in some way be blessing to you as it have been to me to write this. I will end by sharing with you this piece written by Clair Cloninger and Don Moen.

May His be please with everything we do. God Bless.

Kuan Cheen
I Offer My Life
Clair Cloninger & Don Moen

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life


Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, all of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you, Lord


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Jul 18, 2006
A Prayer for His Daughter in a Distance Land

Lord Heavenly Father, first of all, we want to thank you for the privilege to call You, Our Father, and that we are Your children of Your Kingdom. You called and reached out to us even before we know You, Lord. We went away, and were lost, yet You seek us, found us and welcome us back with Your open arms. Thank You, Lord. Thank You, Lord.

Lord, I would like to uphold in prayers for my dear sister here, Lord. We believe that it is not by coincidence that You have opened up the doors and gave her the opportunity for her to further her education in this country away from her home, Lord. We know that everything is in Your control, Lord, and that You have placed her there for a reason, Lord.

It is by Your loving grace, that she has came to call You her Saviour. Now as she continues to grow in You and to be more like You, I pray that You will continue shower upon her Your endless love. Just like the lilies and the sparrows, You will look after her, Lord. You will hold her in Your arms and follow her in her each and every of steps.

I thank You for leading her to a church in this country foreign to her, that she can continue to worship You and serve You. As she settles down in this church, Lord, I pray that the church will be great a blessing to her. I pray for the church and pastors, that they will stay true to Your Word, Lord. That they will stay on course of Your directions, as they lead Your sheep. Let the members be edified and continue to grow in You, Lord. Let Your love be sown in each one of them.

Nurture this precious daughter of Yours, Lord. Teach her and guide her that she will be the great woman of God that You want her to be. Guard her heart that she will bring glory to Your name, be a blessing to everyone around her, not just her church, her university, her community but wherever You place her, Lord.

You have great plans for her, Lord. I pray You will continue to grant her strength to persevere, to stand up for You and to run Your race. That she will press on to reach the goal that You set for her, glorifying Your name.

Lord, let us be obedient and humbly surrender our all to You.

Thank You, Lord, in Jesus' name. Amen.

kuancheen|kualalumpur|20060718.1202

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Jul 14, 2006
FM 103.2 Inspire: A 24/7 Praise & Worship Station

I always thank the Lord for all the live internet radio stations that He put online. It's been my source of inspiration, comfort and peace. It's one of the things that has been constant while I travel, giving me the sense of familiarity.

There are two main station that I listen to.
1. K-LIFE FM (which I stream live on my blog)
2. FM 103.2

I came across FM 103.2 when I was in Sydney two years ago, which was the same time I got to visit Hillsong Church.

After been listening to FM 103.2, which blends music from both Christian and other positive music from secular artists, with uplifting messages, they finally had the funding through faithful givings, put a 24/7 purely Praise and Worship station! Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!

There's even a station targetting the youth as well. Here's the list of their offerings.

FM103.2 (32kbps)

Enjoy Sydney's FM103.2 from the convenience of your PC. Live life.

Listen Live
Listen in Media Player
 

Fresh Radio (64kbps)

Enjoy the best in today's Christian youth music. Music and a message with an edge.

Listen Live
Listen in Media Player
 

Inspire (64kbps)

Celebrate your Christian faith with Praise & Worship from around the world.

Listen Live
Listen in Media Player


Hope that you will be blessed as I was and still am.

kuancheen|singapore|20060713.0100
... I will sing to You forever























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Jul 12, 2006
How do I know that the Devil exists?

Over heard this over K-Life. (32kbps | 96kbps)
A man asked another, "You believe in the Devil? You mean, you actually believes he exist? Just like me and you exist?"

The other man replied, "Well, yes. Try opposing him and you will find out."

kuancheen|singapore|20060706.1311
... "You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder." --James 2:19










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